alrighty now… back up and runnin!

ok… seriously pissed off. blogger is actin really really funny.

a day like any other day passed me by earlier this month…
it passed by unnoticed actually. it was an anniversary of sorts..
ive had my blog for just over a year now.

weird huh?
i just spent the past 20 minutes reading over some of my first posts.

‘wow’

thats all im gonna say.

1 year.
bring it on.

along this journey aptly called life… we’re bound to discover something about ourselves…
most people simply pretend they didnt see the nugget of wisdom and truth, quickly scampering away…
happily choosing to be ignorant.

others, others don’t find themselves so lucky. they’re the ones destined to reach down, and pick up the pebbles of their existence and begin to piece together who they are… they are destined to think beyond this world… for, when it all comes down, they are not from this world.

see, the difference between those choosing ignorance, and those willingly walking this road… is that one group will drift through this life and barely leave a mark… as a breeze flitters through a grove of trees, they are around one moment, and gone the next…

and the other group, they may not have all the answers… they may not even know all the questions… but they’re asking. they’re seeking. each time they find a pebble of truth, they keep it…

they may not know all of who they are…. yet…. but they asking the One who knows.

and they….

they will be the ones who change the very earth we live on.

have you any idea….. how beautiful you are?
that in a million years I could not love you more
like the sun can only shine so bright in the auburn sky
and you will never be abandoned
I will never leave you stranded
I would die to find a way to reach you…

there is no ocean deep enough
no mountain high or steep enough
to keep Me away – keep Me away from you
there is no highway long enough
no river wide or strong enough
to keep Me away – keep Me away from you

when are you going to believe like I believe in you?
if love is a lie then there is no truth
so I’ll hang on the wire and follow you anywhere
and you dont have to bel onely
or look very hard to find Me
I’ll be walking on your stormy sea

I know your feeling lost sometimes
I know you’re losing sleep at night
and faith is hard to find
and prayers are crashin to the floor
and you wonder what you’re prayin for…

there is no ocean deep enough
no mountain high or steep enough
to keep Me away – keep Me away from you
there is no highway long enough
no river wide or strong enough
to keep Me away – keep Me away from you

currently playing: Hans Zimmers
“Armageddon: Closing Theme”

something came to me just a moment ago.

it wasn’t because of any deep though patterns of my own creation. it wasn’t because ive been sitting here for the past hour pondering the meaning of life… its simply because… ive spent the last year pondering the meaning of life. and ive in no way figured it out yet…

however… listening to this song… the passion… the power. the overwhelming urge invoked to just stand up and give your all.

to something… anything….

somethin just kinda clicked…..

our lives – should be a symphony to our Lord…

something passionate. something powerful. something that invokes others to stand up give their all for something… for anything…

for Him.

nothing much tonite, its off to bed in just a few
11pm… wow:-) someone should be proud.
on a small sidenote… someone commented back on sept. 26 – they only signed as “me”… id love to know more about this mysterious person…

i guess ill just have to stay tuned.

as for the rest of this life i think im living….
let me thank nannyk8 and pookie for their support through this time…
nannyk8 – thanks for the emails and comments… ill reply. i promise
pookie – you rock. thank you. for everything.

ok, nite for now.

i had an entire blog all typed out, and one mistake on the keypad and bam… its all gone.
so here i am… left with a blank page…

a new page.. a page untouched by todays blemishes…
something clean..something pure…
like the day that has just begun…

anyway, my thoughts for nite…

if its true that this life we live is a road… then sooner or later, if you fight hard enough… and forge your own path… you will come to… you’ll come to your edge.
the place in your life where you just know you’ve gotta make a decision… and the decision will forever impact who you will be… as a person, in your life… and those who know you and call you friend.

thats me. thats now. thats my life. this – is my edge

a new day
the sun is shining
seems I’m closer to finding
that life is more than where we are
no way that I am TURNING
as long as the sun is burning
now it seems that all I want is you

so – for this moment in time… for this place in the road im called to walk… ive made a decision, and now – its time to “go public” so to speak. to make my ‘statement’.
my prayer.
my hearts cry…

its simple really….

Lord… i am utterly lost without You. ive never been more aware that i can not do this on my own. that i can not walk this road… under my own strenght. Father, its simple. i need You. i need You in all i am. come, take control. take my unbelief. take my fear. burn me with Your eyes and see into who i am really am. take everything away that isnt You. lord, i need You. come, Father – lead me and i will follow.

I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don’t know what else I can do
cause I’ve seen it all
it was never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

dont give up on me yet…. dont forget who i am… i know im not there yet, but dont let me stay here alone.

Lord, i am yours. ive done all i could, forgive my faults and lead me on. ill go where you lead and ill do what you want, just take me with you. i cant stand being away from who you are.

im gonna fight. im gonna continue on in this road im on and Lord, if im wrong, please show me. and even beyond that, help me to trust you for all things. all things……

This time what i want is You / There is no one else / Who can take Your place / This time You burn me with Your eyes / You see past all the lies / You take it all away / I’ve seen it all / It was never enough / It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away / Take me away / I’ve got nothing left to say / Just take me away

I try to make my way to You / But still I feel so lost / I don’t know what else i can do / Cuz i’ve seen it all / It was never enough / It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away / Take me away / I’ve got nothing left to say / Just take me away

Don’t give up on me yet / Don’t forget who i am / I know I’m not there yet / But don’t let me stay here alone / I’ve seen it all / It’s never enough / It keeps me needing you / I’ve seen enough / And it’s never enough / It keeps me needing you

Take me away / Take me away / I’ve got nothing left to say / Just take me away

… im gonna leave this up as my hearts cry of the past few days. ive seen it all and its never enough, it just keeps leaving me needing you. thats me. thats another page in this life that i havent lived in quite some time. i am waking up… and realizing that life has a lot to offer.

this time, all i want is You… there is no one else… who can take Your place…

ive seen it all and its never enough, it just keeps leaving me needing you… take me away

our mysterious “voice from the past” has spoken many many things… but said nothing of any consequence or depth whatsoever. its sad what people will do to simply get attention…anyway – to the original nameless post-er… you’re still more than welcome to speak with/to me. ive no time for stupid games, but ill gladly speak with you.

nite

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