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is there something seriously wrong with me? when i get to the place when – after more bad news on the family front – i just sit and…in some sad way…im amused by how pathetic this has become? is that a warning sign? i dunno….quesiton of the nite…
for now, thats it from this life i think im living
i dont really have much to put down tonite… long day. and i do have lots on my mind… just things that, as ive said before…i need to say to specific people… but i will leave you with my song of the moment/day/whatever.
if a song is a snapshot… then this is a picture of where im at… the picture may not be clear and it may not be focused properly… but hey… its me. its this specific moment in this life i think im living.
goodnite all…i leave you with – dandelions
In a field of yellow flowers,
underneath the sun,
bluest eyes that spark with lightning,
boy with shoes undone.
He is young, so full of hope,
reveling in tiny dreams,
filling up, his arms with flowers,
right for giving any queen.
Running to her beaming bright,
while cradling his prize.
A flickering of yellow light,
within his mother*s eyes.
She holds them to her heart,
keeping them where they*ll be safe,
clasped within her very marrow,
dandelions in a vase.
She sees love, where anyone else would see weeds.
all hope is found. Here is everything he needs.
Fathomless your endless mercy, weight I could not lift.
Where do I fit in this puzzle, what good are these gifts?
Not a martyr, or a saint,
scarcely can I struggle through.
All that I have ever wanted, was to give my best to you.
Lord, search my heart, create in me something clean.
Dandelions
you see flowers in these weeds.
Gently lifting hands to heaven,
softened by the sweetest hush,
a Father sings over his children,
loving them so very much.
More than words could warrant,
deeper than the darkest blue,
more than sacrifice could merit,
Lord, I give my heart to you.
its been a while hasnt it? since i sat here and poured my heart into this. its been a long time since i was introspective. i guess -when one doesnt like what they see- sometimes they choose not to continue to look. which is what i think ive done….
it seems that i may not have a lot for the blog tonite. i know -its been forever- and so much is on my heart right now… so much. but i guess the words are best said directly to the people that i need to say them too….
for now…. to my little sparrow wherever she may find herself…. goodnite and you are loved.
and to the rest of the populace -this life i think im living….well, it hasnt stopped. and neither will i:-)
sleep in peace everyone
-nite
i spent the evening at a viewing for a little girl.
ive got no words… ive got nothing i can explain or figure out…
all i have… that i can put down on paper… is this song
so its what i leave you with tonite…
i said goodbye to a 7year old girl tonite.
7… thing about that – and realize your life may not be that bad….
Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there’s always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
im not sure what a proper ‘farewell’ message is to a very loved little girl…. but whatever it would be… i would insert it right here.i know that -being a teacher in childrens church- you’re not supposed to have favorites, well…i did.
and one of them passed away last nite.
i would ask that you keep the parents of this little girl in your prayers.
thank you.
ok…i think im passing the point of interest… slowly moving into minor anoyance… ah well.. could be worse:-)
earlier today i sat and watched my fish…
mesmerized by her own reflection in the bowl…
my fish spends hours chasing its mirrored image…
and yet – i read vals blog – and i sit… and i read 9 posts…
from insanely mesmerized people about how weird skip is.
we humans – forever easily amused:-)
and sarcastic
as to the ‘legacy’…. all that you know – is true.
and you only know the smallest bit.
::raises a glass of dew:: a toast – to leads of hettuce
anyway – i must agree with mateo – obscurity and anonimity are two very clever and powerful weapons…
my interest is still kept – however, the unknown person has yet to respond to my challenge – prove you know me. and not just my blog…
this life i think im living gets more interesting every day:-)
life sucks sometimes. it really really does.
ah well
sleep. blessed precious sleep
nite
more than anything else right now…. i really miss my daddy
someone posted to my blog this morning around 2am. i’d like to know who.
simply because –
words mean very little when we dont know who they come from……..
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