i want to crawl into his lap and lay there – no need to fear. no agendas. no work. no responsiblities. just God and me. im tired and i want to… i want to stop fighting for just a moment and rest… get a glimpse of what im fighting for… i want to drop my shield. lay down my guard and feel safe. i want to walk into His presence and never leave. i want to be held. i want…. i need… to cry.its a dumb analogy. but it fits. i feel like a warrior thrust into a battle he didnt start… and i feel ready to collapse.

tomorrow? work. war. battle.

this life i think im living keeps going…
so here i go.