i may never come to the place where im content either having little…or much. i may never achieve the level of finding peace no matter what my surroundings. and i may never live a life so surrendered that im ok with not being in control. and im almost sure i will never attain -in this life i think im living- the ability to sleep, fully knowing i am completely and wholey inadequate for what is going on in my life.

i may never get there – but i have nothing else… but to try.