our lives will forever be defined by the choices we make. a life lived without choosing – a life without risk… is a life unlived.

i find myself tonite with my thoughts going in about 10,000 different directions. im very tired yet brutally awake…

emotions are – high – for some reason…

i guess in this life we will always have people whom we connect with…
people who we alike ourselves too….
heros, our role models, those we hope to be like… those who seemingly triumphed in horrid situations…
those who fight not only the demons of this life, but also the demons in their own heart…

those who will walk the road laid before them… do the tasks required… and allow themselves to be broken.
those who know they are called. know their utter inadequate of the calling on their life…

and they’re yet willing – to fail..

to be made a fool of…
to lose friends and loved ones…

those willing to be who they are called to be… those…

those destined to fulfill their calling.

they are the chosen ones.

ones who lay aside all else to press on for the mark of the Higher calling…

this is who i want to be. this is my passion… this is what my heart beats for…. i know now more than ever that very little in this life is permanent… and yet, for this life – its all we have. this is me

so – i am going to continue to fight my demons and the demons of this world… and keep walking.

im not sure what im saying in all this… except…

You changed my world
when You came to me
You drove a passion
in my soul down deep

Lord, to follow You in everything

I dont want to go somewhere
if i know that You’re not there
cuz i know that me without You
is a lie

And i dont wanna walk that road
be a million miles from home
cuz my heart needs to be where You are
so i dont wanna go

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