sometimes it takes all we have to simply love someone the way we’re called too.one of the hardest things to do in this world is to love someone….. from afar. knowing full well that your love may never… ever be reciprocated. knowing that your calling in their life may be for nothing more than to love from a distance. never able to fully express how much you love them… or how much…. how desperate you are, to simply share all you are with them…

its a pain that can’t be described… its an ache deep in your soul. that will never be quenched. its the deepest longings of the heart…

that are left unfulfilled.

so maybe i havent given up yet… but im beginning to ask myself if its time to move on.

im begining to question wether or not im stuck in my own little dream-bubble. hoping -against all hope- that my dream would come true…

and restoration will come.

i dont know.

im searching. i know of no other term to use….

i dont know what to do… and im desperate for guidance…

ive been wondering over the course of the past 3 weeks… if im getting a small glimpse of what the Father feels towards his children… when He cant fully express His love…

im not sure…

all i know to do…

Lord help… help me please.

not ashamed to be helpless hiding at the feet of the Lamb who died
and made a way where there was no way
don’t care if they call me crazy
i need You like the air im breathing
and wherever You are i never will be far away