maybe its the realization that life will always keep going. even when our life falls apart. the world doesnt stop. maybe its just the determination to put that one foot in front of the next… and just continue to keep going.

hope isnt a beautiful uplifting thing… its the decision to breath through water-filled lungs.

i made the decision long ago…. to allow myself to expierence feelings fully.
whether it was joy or pain… completion or loneliness… whatever it is, i choose to feel… to live… fully.

and i make that statement again.

this life i think im living will never again be normal. but i choose to live it fully.

july 19, 2003… a date that will forever be burned in my memory.

welcome to the war….