again for tonite… im gonna leave this post without a title. im hoping that more or less, ill just end up pouring some of who i am right now into this post.

with newly discovered love… comes the need for newly, or possibly renewed… surrender.

i cant begin to describe how much has changed in little more than a month.

i am utterly terrified.

Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.

CS Lewis

i dont know what the next step is. or even if there should be a next step.

all i know…. is this.

when the music fades
and all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something thats of worth
that will bless Your heart

ill bring You more than a song
for a song in itself is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
through the way things appear
You’re looking into my heart.

im coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about You…. all about You.