the one question that hasnt let me rest. thats kept me awake. thats jarred me from other thoughts.
what on earth am i doing?

a 1700 mile move! thats one thing. leaving friends. job. apartment. church. “home”. to move into another apartment… thats one thing.

but a freaking trailer? dear god… could i GET any closer to white trash?

why the heck did this have to happen 3 years ago. why? screw that im not past it yet. i dont care.

there are no answers.

and im so so terrified.