as i approach my computer today…im much more timid and um… aware…
aware of my actions
and what i say…
so i guess i should apologize for just being so – “loud” yesterday.

ill be honest – i dont have any idea whats going on inside me right now. i dont have words to describe it. i just know i cant go on with like this much longer.

i need something to change… what? or how? ive no clue. but something has to change.