im not sure exactly what it is inside of myself im so afraid of.
falling in love? pain? letting down those who i do love?…..

Christ gave all He had for those He loved. there was not one thing He held back.
He lost it all. for the sake of the ones whom He loved with all His heart. and they didnt even understand it….
they couldnt figure out why He had to go.

there are some things in this life i will never understand.

the hardest part about this life…. is living.

i didnt realize how much i miss human contact… i miss my dad. i miss my mom. i miss her hugs.

the winter here’s cold, and bitter
it’s chilled us to the bone
we haven’t seen the sun for weeks
to long too far from home
I feel just like I’m sinking
and I claw for solid ground
I’m pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go

as i listen to these lyrics… the tears are falling freely…

i guess what i miss most of all… is seeing my mom and dad… together.

i never knew there was stuff inside of me that could hurt this much….

pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there