i came back from florida (AWESOME time) less than a week ago. and i will be travelling internationally for work on tuesday. i’ll be in london ontario for anywhere from 2-6 weeks:)

yeah. im exhausted. and scared.

i want so much for the changes that began in me to continue. to grow. to come to the place of completion in every area of my life. i want a new heart. i want a soft heart. i want a heart that cries when He cries, sees what He sees and loves the way He loves.

ill admit it, i have no clue how to be the man i’ve been called to be. there is no handbook for a 20something male without a father. there isnt. it doesnt exist. and for so long i used that as an excuse. something to hide behind instead of something to overcome. well, this is me. i do not know what the next step is. and i have absolutely no idea what the final product is going to look like. and honestly, i am not even sure of the ultimate goal.

but i am going to fight with all i am to find out.

Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow.”
-mary anne radmacher