One Sonic Society – Walk With Me

and sometimes the revelations come at the oddest of times, and because of the oddest of reasons.

we all do it.  we all work hard, hoping to be good enough.  praying that this little extra bit that we didnt give yesterday, that the increase in effort or time, the extra energy spent, the attention focused, that all our efforts and striving would bring us success, peace and rest.

its a hard lesson to learn, that we’ll never, in our own strength, enter into that rest.  enter into the joy, the peace, that we know exists if only because our souls remember a time when they existed surrounded by it.

its a hard lesson, realizing, and allowing ourselves to fully grasp that we will never be good enough.  that we are not, right this very moment, good enough.

some of us, myself included, when faced with the reality of that awakening, do everything we can to pretend its not there.  we work hard, we strive more, we sleep less and give everything we have to be just that little bit….. better.

that little bit.  that will catch that girls attention.  or will make you less invisible.

that little bit that will make you lovable.  beautiful.  wanted.

that little bit which will complete the puzzle of your heart.

that will complete the map, show you the way, and lift the fog which veils your destiny.

that little piece, which never fits.

so we try it again.  we start the whole cycle over.  we work even harder, sleep even less, love us less but buy more.  we bend to others wills, sacrificing our own dreams at the altars of desires of those we barely know.

all for the hope that we’ll be loved.  we’ll find peace.  we’ll find that rest.  we’ll be lovable.  successful.  wanted.  worthy of fighting for.

i realized.  just now.  that ive been fighting for all the wrong reasons.  ive been fighting to find that place of peace.  that piece that fits and makes the world a better place.  that piece that unveils the mystery, that blows the fog away and reveals the path in which i should walk.  that one thing that changes everything.  that makes life beautiful.  that would make me beautiful lovable, wanted.

i realized, just now that ive been working towards something i will never be able to have or control.  ive been working, striving, sleeping little, all for the acceptance of those who surround me.  friends, coworkers, church members, in all honesty, it doesnt matter who it was.

what matters is that ive not yet found that piece.  what matters is that monday morning is hours away, and the pressure i exert on myself, to perform, to win people over, to get them to ‘like’ me…. is powerful.

its powerful because i give it power.

its powerful because i believe that its in acceptance of others, is joy.  and hope.  and peace.  and rest.  and the knowledge that i am lovable, wanted, and worthy to be fought for.

i believe all that when there was One who, 2000 years ago, proved all that.  when there was One who fought for me.  who showed me i was lovable.  who offers peace, and rest, and joy, and strength, and….

the missing piece.

i can plan, and strive.  i can work ceaselessly.  i can do everything i possibly can to fill the void that exists in the center of who i am.  but the honest truth, the truth that we all must come to realize…. that i must come to realize, is that it will never be enough.

is that i am not enough.  and i never will be.  but He is.  and He always will be.

and it’s in that realization, not that i’ll never be enough, but that He is enough, its in realizing that He is the missing piece, the one who created the hole in our souls, the one who planted in us the knowing that we were once surrounded by joy and peace, its in realizing that He is it, He is that joy and peace, that we find what we’re looking for.

it’s in that realization, that we see our true value, that we see we are beautiful, lovable, wanted, fought for.

in Your presence, Lord
there is joy, there is joy
in Your presence, Lord
there is life that never ends


One Sonic Society – Walk With Me

author of the world, walk with me
rule of the earth, walk with me
calmer of the storm, walk with me
healer of my heart, walk with me

how i need You
how i need You
oh Jesus
walk with me

light for every step, walk with me
giver of each breath, walk with me

how i need You
how i need You
oh Jesus
walk with me

how i love You
how i love You
oh Jesus
walk with me

in Your presence, Lord
there is peace, there is rest
in Your presence, Lord
there is life that never ends

in Your presence, Lord
there is joy, there is joy
in Your presence, Lord
there is life that never ends

 

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