The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can’t have them.

for days now, ive just had this sense that change was coming.
i dont know how. or where its coming from. but its the very rythmn of my heart right now.

my relationships with those closest to me are changing. have changed.

whats important to me is changing.

its all been over the past 2 weeks or so.

i dont know what to think about it. or much less what to feel.

change and frustration seeminly walk hand in hand.

arg! i cant blog ANYTHING.

so stinkin much going on inside and i cant put it down on paper… or, blog rather.

oh well.

goodnite for now.