nk8 was right.last nite, i was unable to find the words i wanted. tonite may be no different. but at least for tonite, i have something. and nk8 helped to put words to the picture in my mind.

it is a hole.

a big, giant, gaping hole in the center of my life. my thoughts. my heart.


a hole in the center of who i am.

and im beginning to realize that – just like nk8 said – it may never leave.

im slowly just beginning to learn to adapt. to walk around it.